Confession Time…

So, things are not going well lately. It’s all I’ve been doing to keep my head above water. I have the most fantastic support network around me and such lovely friends… but unfortunately lately I have been letting them down…. letting them down to stay at home and ‘do my thing’.

The other thing I realise is that I can have the most supportive people around me, but if I am not my biggest supporter then I can forget feeling better….

I feel at a loss as to when, if ever, I’ll defeat this thing. It’s so illogical and just when I think I’ve cracked it I mess it up again…

I have not been helping myself lately… Yesterday I ate so much I thought I was going to have a heart attack and the only thing stopping me from phoning somebody was shame… I was too ashamed to tell anyone. I’m not sure even that is enough to stop me though.

I’m in chaos at the moment….

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I have to think about the ways to pull myself out – to get the motivation.

Xx

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